Not My Timing … But Yours

Nevertheless not my will, but yours be done.

Probably the most famous–and significant–moment of surrender ever recorded. A model for all of us.

Not my will, but yours, Lord, be done.

I mean those words when I say them.  I’m sure you do too. I don’t want anything in my life that God doesn’t want for me. I want his will to be done and his kingdom to come. Always.

But what about those things he does want for me that haven’t materialized yet?

My problem has never been surrendering in the obvious areas where God has shown a clear right or wrong path. My problem–and often my frustration–has been surrendering to his timing.

There are many things in my life–and I’m sure in yours too–where God has said “yes” (ALL his promises are “yes”) …

Yet I’m still waiting.

Sure, there are  some definite areas where the things we do (or don’t do) makes stuff take a whole lot longer. But those aren’t the things I’m talking about. I’m talking about when you’re sincerely praying and seeking and believing every way you know how …

But you’re still waiting (and waiting … and waiting … and waiting …).

Because sometimes it just isn’t time. And when it’s not time, there isn’t a thing you can do about it …

Except surrender.

Not my timing, but yours, Lord, be done.

That doesn’t roll off the tongue quite as easily–does it? Especially for the things nearest and dearest to our hearts.

But the thing is, if you don’t get the surrender thing down in the timing, eventually, you’ll get resentful. And when that happens–it can all start to fall apart. Even in those bigger more obvious areas where it used to seem so easy to surrender.

There was a time I was drifting perilously close to that cliff. But the thought of ever drifting from Jesus’ heart scared me so badly I knew something had to change … me.

I had to learn to let go.

I had to learn to surrender–in a whole new way.

I had to surrender to his timing.

Not my timing, but yours, Lord, be done.

Recently I heard a song by David Brymer called “Not on My Time.” In the chorus there is a line that struck my heart:

Keep me close to you–not on my time, but on yours.

Think about it–what could be more “God’s will” than keeping our hearts close to his? What could thrill him more than a heart that wants to stay close to his? Yet we still need to yield our timing to his.

And yes, of course, “positionally” we’re always close to him. That’s truth. It will never change, regardless of our moods or feelings. We’re in Christ–you can’t get much closer than that! But how, when, and where we experience  that closeness can vary dramatically. And for a heart that yearns for his presence that can be, well, disheartening.

But that’s where faith comes in.

That’s where trust comes in.

And that’s where surrender comes in.

It’s taken me a while to get the hang of surrendering in the whole timing thing. But I think I’m finally making progress. It’s not so hard anymore. In fact, most of the time, it’s not hard at all.  I know he’ll always ultimately reveal himself again. Because I know he’s always good. 

The irony is that when it comes to learning to rest in his faithfulness–in any situation–the passage of time is actually a good thing. A very good thing.

Because history will always prove him to be faithful.

So keep me close to you, Lord …

Not on my timing, but on yours.

*****

P.S. The song I referenced is on the CD “Beauty, Beauty” (which also happens to be the name of one of my favorite songs on the album) and it is available for free download (in its entirety)  from David’s website: http://www.davidbrymer.com/music/beauty-beauty/#.Un2zqPmshOY   Even though it’s available for free, you can make a donation–and you should!

2 thoughts on “Not My Timing … But Yours

  1. So true. Great insights here. I need patience Lord, and I need it right now! Part of the timing issue is that we may not have the grid to understand yet. The Lord recently reminded me that He was fulfilling a word He had given me in 1989. Back then, I had no idea how He intended to fulfill this word, even though I thought I did at the time. We often don’t know what we don’t know, so it’s a good thing to wait. 🙂 Blessings.

    1. It is a good thing to wait! And absolutely true on not having the right grid for some of His promises. I just wish I had a better grid for WAITING on His promises a bit sooner–lol. Would have made some of the waiting a bit more pleasant 🙂 Better now than never–so glad He doesn’t give up! Blessings to you too~

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