This is one of those posts I already know I have little to no chance of truly expressing what’s in my heart.
But I’m writing it anyway. I’m writing it anyway because it is the thing that is burning within me. It is the one thing I can’t get out of my heart or mind. It’s the thing that brings me to tears and sends shivers of holy awe up and down my spine. It’s the thing that trumps lesser desires and has marked the course of my life.
It’s the thing that leaves me at a complete loss for words, but at the same time desperately determined to seek a way–any way–to express what I’ve experienced so deeply. This vivid reality. This sacred privilege. This blessed assurance. This holy communion that simply cannot be constrained to the limitations of human language.
How do you say thank you for life? For freedom?
How do express a love that so far transcends words that at times they seem utterly useless?
I don’t know how. I probably never will. But my heart aches to try. Because my heart longs to honor this One …
~this holy One
~this faithful One
~this magnificient One
~this beautiful One
This WORTHY One.
This One who loves me with everything –
Yet demands nothing.
And because He demands nothing –
I want to give Him everything.
I desperately desire to live a life worthy of this worthy One. I don’t always get it right, but I’m leaning into His heart. I’m listening for His voice. I’m pressing on to lay hold of that for which He laid hold of me. As I do, I will keep learning …
And by following the Lamb wherever He goes.
Because the one thing I do know is this …
There is only ONE found worthy.
And this worthy One …
Is worthy of my all.
Worthy is the Lamb who was slain to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and praise!”
Then I heard every creature in heaven and on earth and under the earth and on the sea, and all that is in them, saying:
“To him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb be praise and honor and glory and power, for ever and ever!” – Rev 5:12-13
I took a little break from blogging to spend some time seeking God’s heart for this next season. I’ve mentioned before that I was going to be making some changes but wasn’t sure what they would look like. I ultimately decided to keep this blog as my personal place of expression (rather than the Deeper Waters blog) simply because this has been my personal blog for so many years, but I’ll be changing the name and look. In fact, it will probably end up looking a lot like the Deeper Waters blog does now, since I plan to stop posting to that one. I still plan to start another blog dealing specifically with social justice, but for a variety of reasons, it seemed best to start that one from scratch. Stay tuned 🙂